Are you trying to control and micro manage every single bite of your food?
Most women who have struggled with eating disorder or disordered eating habits (including me 🙋🏼♀️in the past) have a strong need to control everything.
Ok, let’s not make it pretty: many of us are control freaks…
But is it really? What happens if we DON’T know how many carbs we ate at lunch, for example?
We think that our bodies are dumb and can’t be trusted which is why we need to control everything. When our stomach starts rumbling it must be wrong, we *shouldn’t* be hungry. If we get a craving for carbs we ignore it and eat chicken breast. If we’re still hungry after dinner, we trust the clock that says it’s 8 so the dinner time is over (or the “feeding window” has closed) so sorry, no more food.
The control freak nature is not letting us to become normal eaters.
Let go of this type of control. One thing at a time. Add one food that you haven’t had in years. Or take a day off from weighing your food. Start small if you need to.
Yes it may be scary at first but the alternative – be a slave of our restrictive habits and controlling habits – isn’t too tempting either is it? No one likes the restrict, obsess, binge (and maybe purge) cycle but this is where we most often end up at if we’re trying to control every tiny detail about our food.
Have you noticed that the more you try to control, the more occupied the mind is with food, and also the more you binge when the willpower to restrict is gone?